Fate of me (poem)

Fate of Me

I'm walking down the street,

Passing by those stranger, 

Fear begin to haunt me,

And embarrassment start to burn me,

And the end, 

My heart become ash 

My life?

Aren't they are obvious now?

The world is dark now,

The lights of the lamp,

Isn't brighten my dark life.

The last scream of pain that I heard,

Is the first tragic memory that stick,

And the last hope I have, 

Is the first thing that couldn't help me 

To continue my dark life.

I climb,

Try to reach the building,

I stand there, 

And I see my town view there

The scenery of happiness,

Where technology of transportation takeover the road,

And the tall, great building,

The community,

Which built for improve my life,

Which I had ruin to end my life.

Close my eyes,

Slowly..,

I let my body lost balance,

To fall down,

and hopelessly,

That there will be someone to rise me up.

That's the last day you meet me,

But remember that,

That's the first day you will be,

Without me..

-Written by Putri Dania

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hello!

So,that's my first poem that I submit here. I had no idea..

The thing that inspired me to write this is the ad of kids depressed on TV. This poem is about a girl who suffers depression who want to end her precious life. 

Don't hurt yourself only because the temporary problem. There still a way to overcome it. Be positive. 

Well, if you questioned about me, Im fine here! I don't depress of something. FYI-I get 6A in UPSR and I had finish with my concert yesterday.

Thats all for now! Hope you like it!

Trip at Cameron Highland

Hello! Its me again in another post. Long time no see?

FYI- I'm at Cameron Highland right now. I am writing this blog at the hotel right now. I had visited a few interesting places today! Let me bring you to the trip through my blog!

Arrived

We finally arrived.! We are heading to Boh Tea Estate. I am looking through the window. Ah, heaven! I can't wait to have a breakfast at the place. I still remembered that I have a dessert there when I was a little child. Moreover, I'm hungry right now.(Who ask you to not have a light breakfast in the morning?!)

We're on our way!

Heaven Herbs in a Tea

A few minutes (or hour? 😐) later, we arrived at the heaven of the tea. Easy to say, Boh Tea Plantation. We went up to the cafe by stepping on the thousand wooden stairs.I'm exhausted and hungry. How do you think that stepping up on the thousand(or million) is not an exhausted activity. However, its rewarding as we could enjoy the tea tree on the left side.

The view of the left side

After all the super exhausting steps, we walked into the place. I could saw a long line. I felt sorry for my mother because she will queue up to order our food(sorry, Mum). We try to search for a seat. Its super crowded but I don't want to share about those crowd thing. We had scrumptious desert such as Belgian Oreo CheeseCake, Boh Tea, Strawberry cheesecakes, brownies and more!You should try it!

Me, having a scrumptious breakfast at the cafe provided

My beloved Mum and brothers enjoying the greenery scenery

After had the hearty meals, we went to the another sides and went in to the factory. We could see some process trough the glass pane. I could learn how tea was processed. But, one think I hate about that.

*inhale

The smell is awful!Honestly, oh my.. I remind you; please wear your mask. (Just kidding, I guess you can stand the smell lol)

My brother in front of the factory

Picture time!

Then, we read some information at the information board. Boh Tea Plantation is the lagest black tea manufacturer in Malaysia, with both domestic distribution owned by BOH Plantations SDN BHD. Despite the worldwide Great Depression at the time BOH was founded in 1929, Russell was optimistic about the tea plantation business, due to steady demand. Russell was granted a concession of land (together with veteran tea-planter A.B. Milne from Ceylon) for the first BOH tea garden in Habu (it was also the first tea garden in the Cameron Highlands). At the time, the land was undeveloped jungle terrain, on steep slopes; with a steamroller and mule-teams, the stepped plantation was created. 

Then, my brothers watched movies on the process of the tea while I'm taking a picture of myself there. Then, we continues our trip.

Well,I will update soon because my hands hurt. Well, always keep on eye in this post! Will be continued tomorrow. Bye!

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Hard Work Leads to Success (Short Story)

In one autumn day, breezing the aesthetic of the glorious Sunday, a mew of a kitten came out. It was Blizzard, a kitten who the most rarely founded..

Blizzard is alone, in the roadside. Living under the tree is not the best, yet lonely and boring. She only keep survive with eating dry leaves. Its was a sad story for Blizzard.

However, she keep ask God for helping her. She also always work hard to survive the winter, autumn, rain, mud, and others.

She work hard for food, fight an enemy and others. She never stop and give up. Plus, she always pray to God.

One day, she went out for food. Its was a long travel and she got lost. When she realizes, she sit under the tree, with tear rolling on her cheeks. She almost give up in her life. She thought that all her hard word is just a wastage. 

But, suddenly she remembered her inspiriation quote. "Never get down. So, get up". She realized, if she just sit there, she will not success. Success is not just knock her door.

She stand up, and continue her walk. She finally succeed, when she found a hole on tree, rambutan tree. She able to survive there. She knows, all the hard work had paid. Thanks, God..

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Remember, always hard working and pray to God. Success will come to you if you do. I hope you all be success :)

-Putri

Less Confidence and Hiatus??

Hey, Peeps...

I...had been stopped for a while(?) to be rest and get back my confidence.

and I can't continued because got no time. My brother always play this computer. 

"Their story is only about bully and stuff.."

When I heard my mom said this to my mom, Its absolutely make me down

I feel down and its the worst blog block and I... am... I don't have confidence and..

Hiatus coming back..

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A Tree of My Life (Chapter 8)

Hey, peeps!

I'm doing other chapter! And I hope you like it! 

"Mom, allow me to go back to school!"

My mom run getting me. Her face seems to decline my hope.

"Dear, its dark today. You can take it tomorrow."

"But, mom! I must finish it today!"

"What is that? A homework?"

"No! I mean, yes..." I smiled to back up my real story.

"Really? Let me ask your friend."

She opened her Whatsapp and ask my friends.

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Bledsky: Hey, friends! Do we have homework today?

Cherry: God, didn't you remember? There are a lot of teacher that absent. Plus, we had finished our homework at school library. Right guys?

Frisk:😐 Yesh. R U forget? We did it in recess, dude.

Duncan: Check your grammar.

Frisk: K..

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"Err.. "

"Lie, Bledsky! What the reason now??"

"I-I.."Its the bully!

" Tell or else"

"Okay, okay! Dover ask me to finished her homework! Its because I tell Miss Chara about her before. Please..don't mad"

"Huh? Dover? Where her parents? I will call them." Mum take a phone and ask me the number.

"I don't know."

"What is her class name?"

"6-6 G-grey.."

"Well, I will private message with Miss Carol."

And she does. Oh no! Will I get bullied tomorrow. I am now get afraid to go to school.

【I been hoping somebody love me in the way I couldn't】

The word still sticks in my head. I am enjoy my recess in the same time. 

Suddenly, someone touch my shoulder.

Without hesitation, I accidentally shouted,

"Oh Liverpool now going down! Eh, Frisk?"

"Yes, Its me, Frisk. Eh, I am not! I am Countiho" She is kidding me. I know your tricks, Frisk.

"Ugh, the joke is the most old now, Frisk"

"Why are you recess alone? Join us!"

My face changed. I go away and said,"Okay, Countiho. I will go first. Bye."

"Eh, my name is Frisk!"

Today, the bully make a same things on me. Fortunately, my mum pick up me and all the bully run. she shook and ask me to come in.

"How school?" And mum keep focus in driving.

"Great"

"Lie. I see you being bullied just now. I still have an eyes." and she touch her eyelids and show her action to me.

"Haha. Yes, I had a problem"

"Aww, don't be sad. Smile like this cute kitten"and she lend me a Pusheen the Cat keychain.

I smiled."Thanks."

"Tell me if you had problems"

I smiled. 

Suddenly, I saw a car pass by. It seems to be driven in the most speed.

"aaaaaaahhhh!!!!"

A Tree of my Life (Chapter 7)

Hey Peeps!

Me again! I am going to continue my last chapter! Okay, my chapter is may, bad? But, at least I do my best!😉

"Miss Chara! I-Im..."

"I can feel that you have a problem. Tell me. I may help you"

"Erm, nothing"

"Lie! I believe that you had going trough something bad. I am your teacher. Tell me"

"I...had completed the last week math homework.But, then...I send it and there only a blank page inside. And...I h-had investigate and caught the b-bully had tear off m-my work"

She nodded and smile. "Its not your fault. I will talk to your math teacher. Who is she?"

"M-Miss Miku..from Japan.."

"Well, then I will tell her. Don't be sad. Here, take this candy"

She lent me a candy but I am refuse it. After a thousand(maybe?) persuade she give me, I accept it and grate for it.

"I will go there, telling her. See you soon"and she went away and get faded.

"I am glad having such a great techer. Thanks, Miss Chara" and I smile alone, to the plant beside me.

Ring! The bell of freedom finally rang. We all go home in that time.

"Thanks, Mr. Tord". The voice of all the students make an echo in the class.

He nodded and go straight to the office.

When I am on the way to my house, I had been blocked. Oh no! The bully again.

"Hah! Look the precious menu today" and Creamy pushed me.I fell and I cut my knee. I try to stand but Soo slapped me.

"What did I do on you?"

Dover come nearer and give me a great slap. "Huh, still idiot from grade 1! You are the reason that our parents been called here"

"Oh, really? Well, that the greatest punishment, eh?" I dare to tease them.

One more slap landed on my cheeks.

"Eh, idiot! How dare you said that!? I am promised to ended up your small life!"and Dover kick me.

After a thousand minutes been abuse, they go away. Before that, Dover give me a warning."Dare to fight us and you will die"

There blood here and there. I can't even stand up. Who are the people that willing to help me?

Soon, I lied there and fainted.

"Sky, are you had wake up?"

"Who, who are you?
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"Uh, just hold my hands"

"Where?" I am such as 'blind' when I failed to opens my eyes.

"Open your eyes"

I open my eyes and saw the person. Oh, how shock!

"Jenny? I know you want to abuse me again. Hit me and let me die here"

"Okay. No, I come here to help." and she smiled. "I am terribely sorry for you. You are my lovely idol. Sorry for the past. They forced me to go to their gang or else. I am sorry."

"Uh, I can stand by myself."and again, I fail.

"Hold my hands"

I follow her instruction and I success to stand.

"Which one is hurt?" I show my blooded knees and arm. She take her bag and take out a small first aid kit.

She put an oil for cure and put a bandages. "Do you want me to bring you home? I had a bicycle. I can bring you there."

I agree and went to my home, together.

When I am reached home, I smiled and thanked her. She get faded from rode to rode.

I entered my house. Mom give a hug and have a such as many question. Let me list some.

Why I am late, Where had I go, Why I am covered with bandages, What happen and more.

After hearing my answer, my mom hugs me and become worry of school. I calmed her and said that all is fine.

I went straight to bathroom. But, I guess I had forgetting something.

Oh no!

A Tree of my Life (Chapter 6)

Hello, peeps! Welcome to Barcelo-, I mean, new chapter. I got a few times to writing so yeah.. And enjoy!

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First, I must be a 'detective' of the last incident. I wrote on my small pad..

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Blossom Little Pad

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Mystery Topic: A Lost Pages

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Okay, what next? Erm...

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Mystery Topic: A Lost Pages

Suspect:

Dover

Jenny

Creamy 

Soo

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Seems that my work almost complete. Oh, how about the way to searching?

Lets go to our 'detective' room.

Tuesday                                8 February 2017

I come to school, like usual. I use the longer road to avoid from facing the bully. The, I reach the school, safely. 

When I am arrived, I quickly run straight to the class and put my bag down. It is really early so I decide to take a look to the bully's room. Their class, 6 Grey is really in grey mood. The pupils there are very naughty and a bad result. My feet never step on the place but in this such as important mission, I am forced to do.

I checked Dover's desk. There are no something that solve this problem. There are Firmino Figure, a few Pokemon cards, a body part of insect and a jar of a dead mosquitoes. How did she get all of this things? Then, I check out Creamy's desk. Nothing. Only an aesthetic picture, a lot of recycle paper and scissor. Okay, now Jenny's turn. This one is suspicious and dangerous. A knife, a sharp scissor, a blood from an insect and antibiotic. The last one, Soo. There is only a piece of workbook pages but its not mine.  There is nothing right here. 

When I start my step, I accidentally step on something. I look down to ease my curiosity. I saw a piece of paper. It is the date of my math homework. 

Without hesitation, I took that piece and put it into my special plastic bag. Then, I went to toilet and met up with another pieces. This time is written 234. I take it and put into the same bag.

I went inside and randomly, choose a  bathroom. I went to 5th bathroom, but there are a piece of paper, saying that the toilet is clogged. Wait a minute. Let me think.

Its Soo's handwriting. I had just saw the handwriting in the piece of workbook just now. I tear it and put it into my special plastic bag. I quickly went inside. Oh my God! Its my piece of workbook pages! Maybe this is a reason that this toilet is clogged. I take it, and quickly put into the special plastic bag. 

I doesn't feel to went to toilet now. The bell of assembly suddenly ringing. Oh my God, I must have been late!

"Grammar, class. We will learn about the plural nouns. Pay attention when I am teaching" and Miss Paist take a time to teach us. I can't stop thinking of giving the proof to Miss Miku. 

I just can't give an attention. A few minutes of the talking, she suddenly call my name. I stand up. Oh no! Did she want me to answer question? 

Yes, exactly. She asked,"Change this word to plural nouns. Reef". Err...Reeves or Reefs? Erm...

"Reeves?" Suddenly, all the students laughing. Miss Paist shook her head and said," Wrong, lazybones. Always not paying attention in my class. Is this student that we need in 6 Turqoise? No! Its just an easy question. Just about plural things. That shown that you are too lazy to read. Where all the knowledge  I had teach you? Please pay attention", said Miss Paist, with that yadda-yadda  words.

The bell of recess had just  rang. I run straight to teacher's room but blocked by the bully group.

"What is that stupid bag?" and she snatched the plastic bag. 

"Hey, give it back! Its mine!"

"Huuuuu" and they all run away. I try to chased them but I left alone. I can't do anything. I sat on the bench, and cry of my bad luck today.

"Bledsky.."

And I look up. Its really shady until I couldn't see her face.

A Tree of My Life (Chapter 4)

Hey, Peeps! Its me again. I had doing a few correction and I had rest for a while. Here, I publish a new chapter. I hope you love this chapter. Enjoy~!

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“Stand up, Bledsky!” Miss Miku's voice cause an echo in the classroom. All the students keep their mouth zipped.

“You had no reason now. Stand up on the desk until the school ended. To the others, continued your work or else.”

I just follow her instruction. I didn’t dare to do the opposite.

Suddenly, Dover pass by my class. She look and smile mischievously at me.

"You deserve it", she said and stick her tongue out.

"Dover, what do you doing standing there? Try to searching your boyfriend here? You had better go to class or..."

Dover had already run to her class when she heard it. a few students try not to laughing when heard the sentences.🁁

⟪The Bell Ringing~⟫

"Look, Dover! The loser is coming"

Oh, Creamy notices me. "Ah, look the poor little girl." and Jenny's turn to haunt me by a word. 
"Why, loser? Doesn't it make you happy. All the children are is talking about you. Famous enough, with hate"

And they all laugh at me. I just look at my shoes and go away from the place.

They following me, anywhere, even in the toilet. I go to the one of the room, in the bathroom. I just sit on the toilet, without a word. I hope they go away soon.

"Umph, come on. Pooping, loser? You are the poop now."
And they all laugh. I can't do anything now.

Then, I peeped them. Dover asked them to do something on me, to satisfied her. Jenny take a heap of rubbish, and throw it on me. Luckily, I quickly take my bag, as an umbrella.

They go from there, still laughing but get fading.

From now, I think I should call them, a Minecraft Mobs. Ah, what did I thinking about? I am almost insane here..


From now, I am determine to keep my revenge on the 'Minecraft Mobs'. They must been given a lesson.

But, what should I do for that?

Rested from doing chapter 4 for a while..

Hey, peeps! Im good. I had decide to stop doing my story. I had to rest for a while. And I am really sorry. There are a lot of correction should be done on the latest chapters.

╭A Gift from a few peeps.╮

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◤Bledsky◢

Original art(By Me!)

Fanart:

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Thats all for now. Its almost 7.00 pm. Bye!

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#RestForAWhile

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A Tree of my Life (Chapter 3)

Hello, Peeps!

Me again! Enjoy my latest chapter? Today, I'm doing more. And I hope you all have a great time reading!

【C‌hapte𝅺r 1𛲢𛲢】

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I decide to glance to see who is speaking or something. No one was there. Only me,alone here. 

Am I dreaming? I think so. The dry leaf pass me and the wind touch my skin. The chirping of bird getting faded and the black cloud pass floating in the sky. 

Suddenly, I feel dizzy. I must...lay my body. I don't care where I lay my body. when I am going to the bench, suddenly its getting dark. From a beautiful view, had turned into a dark scene. I want to cry for help but no one there.

I lied there, on the ground, weakly.

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"Child, did you hear me"

My eyes widely opened. Where am I? Oh, the same place. 

I still lying on the ground. I think I had see her before. I had recognized the face. 

"Nova, what do you doing here?" And I try to wake up.

"Did you forget, Bledsky? I will went for a netball practice." 

"How, how do you know my name?"

" Oh, sky. Erm, remember this?" And she pass me a picture.

There are me and her in the picture. There are a banner, too. It written, Writing Essay Competition! Wait, if I am right she is..

"You are Nova! You had greeted me at the waiting seat!"

Nova nod and say," Yes, you still remember! And I really happy receiving small note from you. Its written, good luck on it!"

I just smiled. I can't said anything. Even an alphabets.

I remember when we start writing. I had start a first paragraph but suddenly, the world became dark and I fainted. I didn't had a chance to win.

Nova look at her watch and very shocked." Uh, oh! Its 6.00 PM! My mother must had been waiting me in front of the gate! Erm..Meet you tomorrow. Bye!"

I waving to her as she went. I take my bag and went to home. My mom must had been worry.

"I'm home!"

My mom look at me, worriedly. "My God, where had you been."

I just zipping my mouth. I went to bathroom and checking if I had some homework.

There are no homework but there are a rare math workbook. Oh, its Dover's! What should I do?

Should I choose to complete them, or forgetting them? I am very worry.

I took my phone. Slowly, I start searching..

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Bloogle
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Search: A way to solve the problem about someone ask you to complete her homework but you dont want⎹
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And this came out..

Oh God...Now, I am understand why my mom say that sometimes, technology can't help you ..Mom know everything..


I decide to not doing it. I went to bed.

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I went to school. Dover come and ask me to give her math workbook.

She open the math workbook and said," Why you didn't complete it?! I will..."

And she look at the Miss Chara behind her. "Err..Ah! Bye, loser!" And she go straight to her classroom.

┍◉After a learning and canteen scence◉┓

"Okay, kids. Lets just start our class with send your homework. Remember the last week homework? Yes, give me your completed homework.", said Miss Miku, our math teacher.

I search my math workbook in my bag. I take out my book and give the book to her, with the best smile.

After all pupils send their homework, Miss Miku said," Okay, take out the textbook. Answer the questions in page 25"

She start checking our work. After she checked few books, she take out the new pen(Because her pen has running out of ink!)

When she is open the next book, she look at me.

"Bledsky, sending a incomplete work to back up, eh?"

I am really shocked. My eyeballs almost fall.What should I answer to Miss Miku? I am confident that I had done the homework but, why? Why the book is blank? Oh, what should I so?

A Tree of my Life (Chapter 2)

Hello, Peeps!

Read the latest chapter! 😊😊

Satisfied with the latest chapter? Well, I think I should keep improving my story, should I? Today, I will be publishing a new chapter! Enjoy!

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I feel someone touch my shoulder. I glance back to see who dare to touch me. Oh, its Dover.

In my head, I imagine how bad she is. She often bully others. Its make Miss Blocky, our counselor worry of her. Sometimes, my little heart would ask, did their parents patrol her?

Will I be the next victims? Will she punch me? Or asking me for homework? Or something? A lot of question appear in my mind.

"Hey loser.."

Uh, how dare and rude she is! Didn't she knows that I have a name? Why she is calling me with that nickname?

Suddenly, she pass me a book. A math workbook.

"Complete all the question inside. Or else."

No way! I must said that I didn't agree but.. Dover has prepare a 'special gift' at her hand. 

"No", I said, slowly.

Dover's face changed. It seems that the answer didn't satisfied her. She push me hardly until I'm falling down. She hold my neck and bring me to the quiet alley.

She put me down, rudely. My knee is very hurt because she put me down on the ground. The ground that full with sharp nails. 

She slapped me." Huh, that just an easy question. Why you can't even complete it?! " 

"Why you didn't complete it yourself?"

"Shut up! I can do anything. Loser like you shouldn't disturbing me."

She left me, alone. Only her math workbook be my friend there. What should I do?

"What should I do?"

💞💞Ring!!💞💞

"Psst..Bledsky, where had you been? I am forced to eat up all your food.", Cherry asked.

I'm just silent. No word came out.

I just look at the math workbook, sadly.

Today is the last subject for today. I couldn't pay attention to Miss Kookie's class. Every single topic is seems hard for me. Microorganism, Chemical, Animal. All the topic is pass by like a wind.

And soon, my class ended. I walked out from my class. In my way, I see a few group of Dover's friend, Creamy, Soo and Jenny. Dover is having gossip of me with her friends.

Im feeling down. 

And then, I hear a voice. Where the voice came from? Is it only my mind? Or a people trying to incites me? I glanced and....

A Tree of my Life(My Own Story! Chapter 1)

Hey, Peeps! Im doing my own story so hope you enjoy it!😊

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『I think the world is make me feel dizzy. I can't decide where the world say it is good or else』

The word still in my head. Ugh, I should forget it.. I think I should forget all the past to stay front. I can't decide. Should I talk to her? I'm not ready... I want to let my feelings out but..huh..

I just realize that being a 12-years-old girl is easy but it is hard. More homework, less game, less happiness and more anger. And I have another feelings. No, it is personal.

Ah, I need to shut up my mouth. Bledsky, you are so guilty.

"Hey, Sky! Wouldn't mind if I copy your homework?"

Ah, why?!! The anger, its flowing in my blood.

"Cant you see I'm mad?! No, you silly! Don't you dare!!"

Blizzard went back to her place. Did I do wrong to her?

I just focus back to my book, and solve the math problem.

🌿🌸🔔~Recess~🔔🌸🌿

Oh, the line. Why that is so long?? 

"Hey, Sky! I can buy some food for you"

"Thanks, Cherry! Can you buy anything from that. Here, the money," and I give her some money.

She went there to buy. Sometimes, I feel sorry for Cherry for lining up. However, I am hungry 😂

While waiting her, I look up on my mobile phone for notification.

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